Sorcerer's Dream

​Sorcerer's Dream
 
Woke up feeling funny....there was something bothering me, a restlessness unusual from someone just waking up.  And just as was pulling the light cover from over me, it all descended....all the impressions that I had from a funny dream. In the dream I was very sad and went to a sorcerer. Could not see the place or even her face but she told me if I wanted to be happy should look inside me, into my heart. I looked at my breast and there was a big heart, full of scars, some bleeding, but it was a good and strong heart vibrant with the flush of life coming and going out of it. And I told the sorcerer: why such a heart so beaten, so full of scars can be so vibrant and so strong? She told me: look deeper. It was not easy, but I did and for my astonishment in each scar I found a connection with another heart, some strong, some vibrant, some looked sick and dark,  as if incarcerated , but all connected to my own throughout those scars. And I asked again: how is it, what is it? And she told me: open your heart and hear....open your eyes and see! I went into my own heart's scars and started to hear, through the connections, all other people's sorrows, saw all their scars and how life was flowing in a continuous web through all of them, all someway and somehow connected. And then I realized that what made my heart vibrant and strong were those scars connections and the very place where it hurt, where it bled, where those that turned it into a strong and fruitful one. And I could hear, all the pains, all the sorrows, all the unhappiness that mingled with joy, with happiness, with love, could hear hearts singing and crying at the same time. Each had its own story, each had its own glories and defeats, but it only turned me into a stronger person when I listen to all of them, when I let the flow of life from all of them became one with the scars of my own heart.
Remembering the dream made me feel in peace again, made me realize that the only important thing I could do to myself was to be open, have my heart always open and ready to see, feel and understand other. The sorcerer is my battered heart ! That is my secret! I am the sorcerer!

​Angela Weber